War in the head

Do you ever feel like your life needs a massive overhaul? Everything must go. Bad habits, bad memories, bad people that you're clinging on to for whatever pitiful reason. I can feel it coming on like fire, this urge to destroy everything and start over from the ground up. It starts with little things, like my web sites. I look at them and they seem tired and stale and lacking in any sort of oomph. Then I look at my job. Then I look in the mirror. I hate what I see. I feel the discontent crawl up and gnaw at my insides. Then I wonder if I can pull off some sort of beautiful transformation of my life. Then I stop and wonder if I am expecting too much of myself, if this is all I deserve, if this is all I am capable of. That endless little war inside your brain, Reach For The Stars Shauny versus Reach For The Remote Shauny, is an exhausting battle.